can i just cry and curl up into a ball? Never to be seen again. The internet to never exist. Computer science, web design, javascript, php, never exist. and I'll be a farmer and just farm my lands. Why do I think like this? I just hate myself and how how feminine I am and hate how I can't just blend in?
edit: i shouldve grown out of this phase im almost 22. I should already ahve a job lined up I graduted a while ago. I finished college. I shouldnt be wasting my time on stupid shit.
edit 2: i cant stop crying. I just want to be normal and stop overthinking everything. Why does covid have to exist and why do I have to overthink everything? I sometimes just wish the interet could not exist so I wouldnt be so obsessed withit. Im obsessed with how hummanity thinks and views things and thats why i like the f plus. I like making documents on how weird humans are. It's intersting to me. But I also hate it and I just wish I had never cared enough to bother to waste my time. And idk maybe im crazy im probably just durnk.